Time Traveler

I had intended for this blog to cover the extent of my journey through battling cancer, which it pretty much did in that I continued posting until all signs of cancer were gone from my body. But is it...really. Can any of us ever be free from cancer? I have celebrated that concept for three years now...I have gone organic...so much so that I now have an organic garden (currently freezing its organic ass off in this the beginning of another Idaho winter)...I am raising organic chickens that I feed organic chicken feed with omega 3 fatty acids, for the good of the hens themselves but also greedely for the good of my cancer fighting self...and I have patted myself on the back for these efforts...but have I escaped the ravages of that terrible desease that I am so dilligent to avoid? To this I would have to answer a resounding NO...I may not, to the best of my knowledge have any cancer cell currently percolating inside me but I am never the less surrounded by cancer...just as you are.
In my previous entries I wandered into my past to explain my present, to give some inkling as to why I am, and out of this past I have come to find no small part of my near future. My best friend growing up...we all have one...contacted me recently to "catch up" as we hadn't kept in touch for many years...and as it is with true best friends...there was no gap...no void...no uncrossable chasm dug out of life by years of indifference...just a voice that was as familiar today as it was when I was eleven or ninteen when we started college together or as recently as sixteen years ago when he showed up unexpectedly at my sons funeral...the last time I saw him until this month.
He had called earlier in the summer after searching me out on FB and we caught up...comparing notes...amazed at how parallel our lives had been so distant...he had retired as had I...he had been a volenteer firefighter in his community...the profession I loved and retired from....he had a passion for cooking...need I say more. We were excited to reconnect and the opportunity came up when Elaine told me she had a seminar to go to in his neck of the woods...I called him and told him of the good news and plans were made to spend time together cooking and catching up on lives seperated if only by time and distance...then he called me again just ten days before we were to arrive to tell me that we had one more thing in common...he had just been diagnosed with kidney cancer...you have two kidneys my mind screamed...oh but its also here...and its also there...and there doing a bone scan on Monday...and my doc neighbor suggests a brain scan...and yes its in my left humorus...and there are four tumors in my head.
Oh my best friend you always had to beat me at everything...but why this.
I hate cancer despite it's love for me.